Phone Phobia

when talking on Skype, i don't know where to put myself. staring on screen seems absurd stupid and distracting, so the only comfortable way to talk for me is with my eyes closed. eyes closed, i can't imagine any distance, i feel as if in the same room with the person i'm talking to. i start complaining. "why are we talking like this? why aren't we sitting at a table, having dinner together right now?"

i like the cable-y way of old landline phones. phone line coming out of the wall, receiver dangling from its cord: everything visibly connects up right unto my ear. in my imagination, i follow the phone line behind my wall, get a feel for the distance my conversation travels.